Currently Playing A Day Without Rain By Enya see related

I hate having acid reflux disease.  You would think after living with it your whole life that you would get used to it.  I suffer when I eat and I suffer when I don't eat.   I have tried different meds. that can treat the over activity of my stomach acids, but they don't work very well and I can't seem to find the right diet to help, either.  I have run out of options and the pain is making life difficult.  That is why I haven't been posting for the past couple days.  I have been sick.  I would have used crystals to try and heal myself, but the minerals I need are in storage at my parents house and I don't have time to go to another state to get them.  Also, I just don't have the time to go out and buy new minerals.  It hurts so much.  Sometimes I wish I never had to eat again. 

I had a dream a couple nights ago that was very interesting.  The dream started with me finding out that I could easily move through, open doors to different dimensions, parallel worlds of light and dark because I had the key of balance.  My job was to keep all worlds in balance by opening one world upon another.  I had a lot of fun and meet many beings.  Little did I know that I was being followed by someone who wanted the key to open all the dark worlds upon balanced light worlds.  Once I found out what this being wanted and was planning to do I tried as hard as I could to get away.  I don't quite remember how he caught me, but before I knew it I was at his mercy.  He couldn't kill me because the key can only be given to someone else willfully.  That is when he began torturing me.  He lay me on my back with my wrists and legs tied down, or he somehow paralyzed me and had something really heavy placed upon my chest that would suffocate me.  I'm not sure what the object was but it was white with red borders and extremely heavy.  He would even stand in it and look down on me smiling that kind evil of smile you get in a power hungry person.  Then after he thought I had enough, he would lift the object, letting me gasp for air, and asking if I would give it up yet.  I would never give such a being the power over the creation or destruction of worlds.  So, of course I said no.  He would continue this five more times before I woke from the dream.  I'm glad that I did, becuase I really don't want to know what else he would have done to me.  Through the whole dream I wasn't really afraid, but the sufficating part was very weird and almost scary.  I think this dream was one of the first sufficating dreams I had in many years.  I can't seem to remember the last time I had a sufficating dream.  Anyway, it was a very unusual, strange dream and I'm not sure what it means. 

If anyone has any comments or ideas about the dream please feel free to share them.  Thank you.

Currently Playing Voyageur (Special Package) By Enigma see related

Today I had my fill of drama for the next month or for at least the next two weeks.  What happened you ask? 

My boyfriend came home early today because he had Pink eye.  He came home around 11:30 am.   He would have been home earlier, but most of the people in his office were home sick as well and he had to stay until someone came to take his place.  I knew he had Pink eye for the past couple days, but he was unable to see a doctor until today.  I made sure he washed his hands often and I washed everything he touched.  I felt so bad for him to have Pink eye and still have to go to work.  I helped him feel comfortable, I told him to lie down get some rest, and I would get everything for him.  To help heal and make his Pink eye less painful I decided to boil some water and pour it over a hand cloth for him to put on his eye.  Unfortunately, I have already had a busy week and weekend, so my mind was off somewhere else and preoccupied.  I filled the tea kettle with water, put it on the stove, and turned on the heat.  I thought I turned on the right heater, but I turned on the wrong one.  The one I turned on hade a plastic utensil near it.  It wasn't until five minutes later, when I went to check how the water was coming, that I realized I made a mistake.  As I approached the kitchen I saw an orange, dancing glow reflecting off the wall.  I then realized it was a fire making the orange, dancing glow!  The plastic utensil melted and caught fire!  I yelled to my boyfriend that there was a fire in the kitchen and quickly went to try to put it out.  He came to my assistance and we both put the fire out.  There was so much smoke and the flames were high.  We got the fire under control, I turned on all the fans and opened all the windows to get all the smoke out.  Once the fire was out we began to clean the stove up.

I'm so glad I had my boyfriend with me to help with the electrical fire and clean up the mess afterwards.  My boyfriend said that we are lucky that the fire didn't get the electrical wires becuase that could have blown up the whole apartment!  I was frightened half to death and I feel so stupid.  I can't believe I did that.  I really need to be more careful.  My boyfriend says that it's not a big deal, but it was for me.  Anyway, I'm not touching the stove for a while because I'm all shaken up.

Currently Playing The Complex By Blue Man Group see related

"To be free is not to live without limits, otherwise your life would be emtpiness.  To be free is to raise yourself beyond the limits and to transcend them in a Spirit of Love and Wisdom."                            -Unknown

I love collecting rocks and minerals!  I especially love crystals.  I think they are beautiful and each one has a personality.  Everytime I'm in the same room as a crystal I can feel it's energy.  Whenever I touch a crystal I can feel it's energy mixing with mine.  It is truly a wonderful experience when you are in a room full of different crystals and sometimes overwhelming.  Each crystal gives off it's own individual kind of energy that effects different parts of the body and each crystal has a general effect on a person.  Also, in different Zodiac signs the effects of one crystal can be different for each sign.  It is all quite interesting.

I just had the most terrible nightmare today.  Nightmares and terrors have been the common theme of my dreams, starting last week Thursday.  It's not like me to dream such horrid things.  I haven't been watching tv lately, so that is checked off as a cause.  All the causes that could effect my dreams have checked out.  It's strange,...   Anyway, I'm going to share my dream with everyone since that will make sure it never repeats.

The first thing I saw was a body of a woman being disposed somewhere.  She was thrown on the ground upon her back with little clothing.  She quickly was covered in a dark dirt when she hit the ground.  The ground was wet, had dark dirt, and a little bit of snow.  I also didn't see any blood.  Her skin was gray, but her eyes still looked fresh.  Her eyes were wide open, either a blue or green in color, and they had the look of fear, disbelief, and pain.  Her mouth was open as well.  She was also missing 3/4 of her left leg as if it were crudly cut off.  This image/scene didn't mean much to me, other than being gross and freaky, until later, but would frequently flash infront of my eyes in my dream.  I'm not sure where I was, but I was somewhere strange.  I was aproached by a boy 5ft tall with red hair, between the ages of 10-15 years that told me that he was a victum of this guy/ghost/dark thing that liked to kill people and was a prisoner like two other victums not counting the woman because that was his most recent victum.  He told me that he was a ghost I wasn't suposed to be here and I will become a victum if I don't leave quickly.  As he was helping me leave I began walking toward an area to get out of this strange place.  The boy quickly stopped me and told me not to enter that area.  I asked why and he said it was called the frozen sun or freezing sun because it is like a portal of this Being that detects other Beings and he will know who you are and stop at nothing to hunt you down, torture you, kill you, and make your soul his prisoner.  Then we hurried to the exit which was a window, but I could tell the boy was scared.  He told me the Being was coming and I would have to go quickly.  I wanted to take the boy with me, but I could see in his eyes that he couldn't leave because if I took the time to help I would have the same fate as he.  I sad of this and was so scared for my life.  As I was leaving strange, freaky looking creatures with glowing, green eyes surrounded me.  They were floating and I could only see their heads.  Their eyes began to flash in a strange pattern that was paralizing.  Even when I closed my eyes I could see the bright flashs.  I was already scared out of my mind, so I screamed for help.  Then I woke up.

That's the end of the dream.  I'm not sure what it means, but it scares me half to death.  It's not the worst dream I ever had, but it's freaky.  If anyone has any comments feel free to do so.